Please don't judge me. I made a mistake and I judge myself everyday because of it. I'm just looking for advice.
I was convicted of a sex crime in 2010. I was sentenced to 1 year probation and 10 year on the registry. However, less than a year into my registration, the laws changed and I how have to register for 25 years.
The years leading up to my conviction included being married to a man who was a cop. He was extremely abusive. Of course he never touched me, because he knew that was against the law. However there is no law against yelling and screaming, throwing things, watching my every move and controlling every aspect of my life. We had a daughter together and when she was almost 5, I finally got the courage to leave him. I truly felt that if I stayed, I would end up dead, and I didn't want my daughter to continue to see the interaction between us and think that was ok.
So, my bad judge of character continued by becoming involved with my attorney. Who told me he was going through a divorce too...I eventually found out that was a lie. I was his midlife crisis and then pushed to the side.
My daughter and I moved to a town nearby where I was able to find a teaching job. It was during that year, that I became involved with one of my students. YES I KNOW IT WAS STUPID AND I CAN'T EXPLAIN WHY OR HOW IT HAPPENED. I BLAME NOBODY BUT MYSELF AND HAVE ALWAYS TAKEN RESPONSIBILITY FOR MY ACTIONS. The student was 17, which was above the age of consent in my state, so it was the lowest level of felony at that time. Obviously I lost custody of my daughter and had supervised visitation for a very long time.
She is now 12, and I see the abuse that I dealt with as an adult being directed at her as a child. He is controlling and a bully and it is effecting her in awful ways. She is starting to give up activities that she enjoyed, because she can't handle the criticism and ridicule that she deals with afterwards. She gets grounded if her grade drops below an A, and the pressure to be perfect is extreme. She wants to spend more time with me, but is scared to ask, because he is mean to her if she brings it up. I have her seeing a therapist, that he doesn't know about, and I am hoping he can help eventually. I ask for more time, and its declined. I have given him control by my actions and I am tired of being bullied. I am married with a son, and her father does not want her to have a relationship with any of us. He lets her come when the courts make him and rarely outside of that time, and we literally live less than a quarter of a mile from each other. I understand that this is my fault and my mistake was awful, but it was a mistake, not a string or a history of screw ups.
Can I fight and if I do, what are my chances? I created this situation and I need to do everything in my power to help her, but I don't know where to start. I need a fighter as an attorney that is not afraid of a wealthy family (his), and the fact that he is a cop. I need someone who understands what I did was wrong, but I have worked very hard to get past it and become a better person because of it. I have a good job, and I work from home, I am a good mother even though my history doesn't prove it, and I am involved in every aspect of my life that they allow me to be. I am ready to fight the man who has bullied me for over 20 years. I gave him power and I need to find out what I can do to get it back.